PR 6/11-6/16

I just returned from PR and it was ok.  Lots of good times and some annoying times that ruined things slightly.  I need to stop imagining things because rarely does it happen based on my imaginations. Later...

I am trying to be numb

Its been a while I visited you...for some reason I remember to write when something interesting happens in my life.  I remembered it like yesterday when I learned that I should be careful the words I use to my loved ones, because they will remember it forever.  An apology results in forgiveness but how come it is so difficult to forget.  My theory is if you help yourself understand why you are wrong this one time, I bet it will help you not to repeat it again.  For example let us say your husband complains about how you only think about yourself and so you went out and bought your hubby an expensive watch when you both are in a pretty severe financial ditch.  Oh he is raged and angry and wants you to return it.  Now you are angry because you expected him to be excited but instead he tells you the same things, he screams at you saying think! think! think!

Stop... evaluate why he is angry? he is not angry about what you bought ...today he doesn't like what you bought because of your financial situation.  Don't conclude that he never thinks anything you do is right ...it is just inappropriate today.  He probably could have said it in a much nicer way, but understand that he is frustrated and no one is ever happy when in a financial ditch.  Why am I telling you this...I am reading a series of book about how to stay married ... I will be very honest with you.  My husband and I are in love and because of that we argue- sometimes I even feel like he is competing with me- 'let's see how many people will think I'm right and you are wrong" but at times depending on the situation, you are just wrong not a whole lot you can do about it.  I have a lot to learn myself and I will go on to keep reading.

Chow!

I am a Medical Doctor!!!!!!!

This is interesting

No correction taken sir/ma'am

No correction ever taken sir/ma'am

that is the summary of life

no human ever want's to be wrong 

but are we not destined to make mistakes

especially since we are mortals.

So why is it that every time we say we

do not like something hence, we don't want it to

repeat itself- it sounds like a hateful

comment.  Ben is angry that Betsy is angry

or that she did not take the news as expected.

And because of that takes it upon himself,

that it is his fault that she is unhappy, and thinks

of ways to have composed himself differently. 

But Betsy thinks the composition was great.  She 

is glad that he told her even though the news 

ruined her evening.  However, it is what

happened that upset Betsy, it is that, that 

prompted her to write.  Ben needs to accept 

that the mistake has been made, and agree that 

it will not repeat itself. But instead of saying I will

be careful next time, there is an argument first 

and then afterwards he accuses her of saying 

something wrong -it is the way you said it.  

Why can't it be? I did not expect it to

be this hurtful and it will not repeat itself.

Why not save each other some trouble and

be happy. But instead he says Betsy you are 

always mad for too long ...

Little things always upset you...

Ben maybe telling the truth but is it appropriate to 

say such things to Betsy not that she hurts. Is it 

appropriate to say things that make situations

worst.  The interesting thing is we all have our 

own faults.  Betsy hates to also be corrected

but the one she does't do is when one tells her

something annoyed or hurt their feelings

She hates to dwell on it for the sake of defending 

herself.  In fact she doesn't even need to say it 

twice that she will do her best for it not to 

happen again or else she forgets.

What a Cruel day?

I have been stressed, so stressed that acne has taken over my face.  I found that acne corresponds to when I am stressed.  Today has been painful but I am done crying.  I am disappointed but it is not the first disappointment in my life nor the last one that I will ever encounter.  However, it is hard not to be disappointed.  Let us leave it at that- for the memory of my thought will never leave me.  

Anyways, on another note, I have two more days of school left, I have packing to do-need to move.  I am yet to find someone to sublet my house, graduation is right around the corner, there are too many expenses to be made and future plans to think about.  From school to residency, the stress of a human (me) training to be a doctor and a doctor (me) training to be human.  The stress of being a wife, a sister, a daughter, an in-law, a friend...I need a break.  Maybe all of these is happening for a reason- like maybe in a way God is trying to tell me that I haven't earned that break.  I await and long for the day that I will earn that rest, maybe the paradise I will get to enjoy will be the eternal one.  The one I live every day so that some day it will be a dream come true.

The weekend of 5/2/08

A memorable weekend for both Families. Amaka graduated from her Doctor of Pharmacy and Jude graduated from his Masters in Aeronautical Space Engineer. Jude had completed his degree and received his diploma a year ago but missed last year's graduation. I am proud of the two of them and I cooked and danced all weekend. They both went through a lot and they both deserved it.

Peace!

I want Peace, and is that too much to ask

Peace! do you not hear me calling your name

Peace you must not forsake me

I want and need you,

in my home

amongst siblings & friends of this generations

in my heart

in the world

I cannot stand chaos

But yet chaos is important to achieve peace

Peace! Please answer me when I call

Or have you reached out to me?

Have you passed by me and I missed you?

Why me?