Engagements

I visited facebook after some time of leave and I discovered that two of my friends are engaged to be married.  Both were suspected and sorry I didn't check my phone messages- too much has been on my mind lately.  Congrats mi dears and expect our gifts in the mail.  God bless!

Worried :(

Haven't heard from the hubby in two days, I really hope that all is well.

"Gracias Doctura"

It amazes me the power of the M.D.  I admitted a patient to the ICU a few months back, she was a very sick, young Hispanic lady.  It was around the time we saw some nasty sick folks affected with H1N1.  Well that's what she had and she was intubated, sedated, and on the vent.  I remembered that we kept fluctuating her vent settings and  attempted twice to extubate her but without success.  I couldn't figure out exactly what was wrong with her, and none of the other docs had a clue either.  It baffles me how many consultant physicians are usually in one ICU case, and for me that seems to complicate things even further.  Anyways, I was writing my notes when the case manager comes up to me and said "Dr. ChiChi it seems like she isn't getting any better" and I said "no, I am praying hard for her."  I use prayer all the time, whenever I need more guidiance from God in other to better care for my patients.  And then she said "since we are not getting anywhere soon can you write for a permission for her family to cross the Mexican border.'  I was very confused and asked her "can I do that? what exactly do I do?" and she said "write it in a prescription pad and sign your name, with M.D." Wow! I thought just because I am a doctor, well I did it anyways and in a few days her family was in the hospital; they were allowed to cross the Mexican border. 

I Shoulda Known Better

It is high time I learn to stop putting my hope and trust in the Navy.  I am very sad today because I did not hear from my husband as we expected.  His ship was supposed to pull up to port today for refuel and all week we had been looking forward to this day, since he will get his first chance to call me.  I had a 30 hour shift last night and faught the temptation of sleep because I did not want to miss the call.  My father-in-law also called and the whole time I was talking to him, I was worried that I was going to miss the call.  You have no idea how many times I looked at my phone, while seeing my clinic patients.  I reviewed my missed calls a few many times, looking to check that it was not on vibrate or silent.  I checked my mail alerts and emails.  Then I started to worry and imagine everything that could happen, being that I am a woman, the worst usually comes first.  I haven't had the time to do anything else but make sure that I did not miss one message from him.  I finally leave the house in the cold just to get a breath of fresh air, only to return and find an email from him that expressed his dissappointment that he didn't get a chance to talk to me.  Baby, I cannot believe, you had to be placed on watch, it had to be us just because we were looking forward to this day.

I love and miss you dearly