I cannot stand the feeling that I have been lied to, and even though sorry doesn't change the past, not apologizing makes things worst. Isn't it amazing when your actions hurt the other, instead of your spending time wondering how you can fix it and how you can change so that the incident will never repeat itself. You look for things that will remind you of how you are such a better person than the one you hurt. ..."If it were me that will never have made me mad"..."he/she is so sensitive"..."any little thing sets them off"...the mistake that some of us make is we think out loud and even hurt the other even more. Meanwhile, the things you need to apologize for is adding up. Sometimes, I get tired of repeating myself that I just avoid the situation entirely or go to the highest power (GOD). I study and pay attention to people because I like to do things not to upset the people around me but I always wonder why no one pays attention to me so that they can refrain from doing things that hurt me. How can you have the same arguments more than once? that should be impossible- sometimes I go through that with my siblings and friends.
I adjust to new environment very quickly- it is a good thing and a bad thing. Good thing about it is readjustment and all the good things that comes with it. The bad thing is you get very used to being by yourself and you learn to do without your loved ones. Same is true if I decide I don't need people in my life any longer- especially if they stress me more than they make me happy.
Hopefully, this year will be better.
